Sunday, April 25, 2010
The 107th Day @ 9:36 PM
Happy Birthday WINSTON WONG!!..
Haiz..
I feel tired..
I feel sick..
But all that fades away when i see you smile..
It feels weird..
I'm at my best..
Learning fast...
And changing a lot of the better..
Yet at the same time,
I'm at my weakest..
I feel more violently..
I was angry at myself just now..
I don't why..
All i remember is me telling myself..
"Why are you giving yourself false hope? Just so that you can be disappointed?" ><..
But then,
Hope is something that keeps people going..
Is it not?..
As MYEs approach,
I'm sure many people are feeling the pressure..
Honestly speaking,
I'm tired..
So very tired..
But yet, I don't feel like sleeping.. ><..
Found out my role for Yalpha today..
Logistics..
Don't know what to say about it..
Wanted to do programs..
But then, You don't always get what you want right?..
I don't mind..
At least its a chance to serve God..
But then again..
Logistics is the most "leader-istic" and run-around job..
In a sense that logistics most of then time has a team..
And it changes weekly..
And i have to sort of act like the 'leader' and brief all of them..
I still doubt myself a bit though..
I just don't feel that I'm any good..
Haiz..
Tired...
I want to know that you are happy though..
Smiling and enjoying life..
I want to be assured that you will continue smiling..
I guess..
A smile is something i could really use now..
