Thursday, May 20, 2010
The 132nd Day @ 8:59 PM
I seem to be physically and mentally INSANE now recently..
I mean..
I FEEL SICKLY..
I got a stomach ache, I can't sleep cause my nose was blocked,
I sneezed like MAD last night..
And yet I'm NOT sick? O.o
And yeah...
I just lost all trust in my mum ><...
Its heartbreaking...
She asked me some stuff about my dad...
I replied honestly.. And supposedly, What i said was supposed to be just between us?..
But she goes and TELLS my dad about it.. IN FRONT OF ME??? ><..
And she asks why me and my brothers get moody and angry at her?...
But in the end,
Shes still my mum..
And she HAS and WILL go through a lot of pain for me and my brothers..
I just don't think I'll be able to tell her anything anymore..
Or maybe I'll just give in and end up trusting her again..
Can i put my trust in her? ><...
Its funny how every time i feel sad,
I'll get caught in the rain ><..
Especially today..
The MOMENT I started feeling a little down,
It started raining ><...
Oh well..
Its not a sin to admit you are lonely and you yearn for company..
Its only a sin when you use self-pity as an excuse to stray away from God...
Haiz..
One more week till June holidays..
I wonder how life's going to be like the first week of the holidays..
Pretty lonely and quiet i presume...
Oh well..
On a brighter note,
I pass all my MYEs subjects..
Although i feel that I CAN do better..
I guess..
I'll take things slow...
A quote from Sora in Kingdom Hearts,
"The heart may be weak, and sometimes it may even give in. But I've learned that deep down, there's a light that never goes out!"
