Tuesday, May 25, 2010
The 137th Day @ 6:35 PM
Haiz..
I feel like crying so badly..
Don't get me wrong..
Nothing bad happened..
I just feel really burdened..
And very stressed..
I want to let it all out..
But is crying really the best way?..
With that said..
It's been a long time since i last cried..
And i ain't going to cry that easily...
I guess i just can't communicate well?
I can get my opinions across for SL..
But then..
Maybe I'm not making it clear enough?..
Oh well..
I tried to explain my views already..
Getting rejected over and over again doesn't make you feel good at all ><..
Haiz..
Memories eh?..
Last year, Got into a 'fight'..
Cause my school friend got his other friend's basketball confiscated..
And well.. I was with him and playing with him as well..
So yeah..
Got confronted by some guy who claims that i was the one to get the ball confiscated?..
First thing was, He didn't get the facts right?
He just jumped to conclusions and assumed i was the one at fault?..
Secondly, He was speaking in Chinese, and was using some dialect which i couldn't understand..
So how was i supposed to defend myself when i can only understand barely half of what he was saying?..
In the end, I wasn't the one to be blamed?..
He apologized... and pretended like nothing happened? ><..
Yeah.. So this same guy confronted me again today?..
Cause on Sunday, While at Yishun Safra,
The pool area there,
I saw HIM playing pool?
I kind off looked his direction..
Just to make sure my eyes aren't playing tricks on me..
I stared a bit? ><..
And just because of that,
He buay song?..
He say i dao him? -.-"
And yet again, He confronted me using Chinese and dialect..
I can't reply well in Chinese..
Thinking back, I also remembered one time
This EXACT same guy,
Got into a fight with a girl?
Cause during that guy's NCC training,
She was watching, And laughing?..
That guy buay song again..
Thought that the girl laughing at him?...
All that said..
I guess i hold a slight grudge?..
But i guess..
Forgive and forget?..
Will that be possible?..
Its hard.. But i guess i already forgave him just now..
Anyways, I don't even know him well..
So i have no rights to judge him..
Cause i don't understand him/his feelings/his emotions at all..
Sian..
I don't know why I'm so tired..
I sleep around 12+ every night now..
It's still late.. But at least its earlier than before..
And yet i still feel like dropping dead in school..
Maybe this ain't a physical problem..
But perhaps an emotional one?..
Can't put my finger on whats wrong though..
Walking in the rain doesn't help anymore..
I know..
Cause i did that just now.. ><..
4 more days eh?..
I'm happy for you two :D
Going to miss you two loads..
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远~
