Tuesday, July 13, 2010
The 182nd Day @ 4:38 PM
Really can't take anymore of this..
Upset..
Pissed..
But the tears won't flow..
Its like I'm just hanging on the edge...
The joke's on me eh?..
Why, What did i do wrong??..
I'm too scared to approach you to find out..
Sleepy..
Really just feel out of sorts..
Everything just seems to illude me..
Relationship problems..
I just don't know what to do about them..
Please,
If you're considering to ask me 'to cheer up'/'are you okay',
Just so you can bombard me with criticism,
Or if you don't even try to undersand what I'm feeling,
Then don't talk to me..
I really don't want to get pissed at anyone else..
I just really don't want more pain..
Heck,
I know that there're others out there who are going through much worse than me..
But, how can you care for others, when you can't even care for yourself?
Don't compare your predicament with someone else's,
Everyone is different..
I don't know what i want..
Do i want to be left alone?
Or do i just want others to care about me,
To show me concern...
I can't tell..
Can't seem to express myself well..
To sum it all up, i just feel totally and extremely like crap ><..
No one sees the pain behind the mask..
Edit:
An hour passed,
And I've cooled down a lot..
Feeling better now..
Emotions are still a little shaky though..
Don't worry!, I'll make it! somehow... :x
