Wednesday, August 4, 2010
The 204th Day @ 7:52 PM
I just realised how hard it is to NOT write sad stuff here! =x
Too used to it! ><
Hahas, oh well,
There's a first time for everything(:
Who knows? It might be easier to write postivly!
Lols, I should really stop with the reverse physcology thing! ><
I only end up hurting myself =x
In less than 5 mins,
My mood has been totally ruined ><...
Along with that reverse physcology thing,
My Mum got into a quarrel with my dad,
I was too slow at something..
And a wave of those unhappy memories of today just flooded into my mind...
Don't really feel like posting anymore..
I'll just write down what i was thinking about earlier,
Then I'll just go off..
I guess,
What i was thinkin about..
Was just that the NDP rehearsal really felt like deja vu..
Complicated set-up,
Lots of performances,
Mr Gavin Goh as the stage manager..
And both my Meis performing..
The items that are taking place are also somewhat similar..
But something very different though..
I see my Meis performing,
And they just seem different from 6 months ago..
To me,
It seems as though they've gotten more beautiful..
And this type of beauty,
It exists inside you..
It's as though their beauty has been enhanced,
But i guess,
No, its not that they've changed,
Its just, the more i get to know about them,
The more i admire them..
Sometimes, I somewhat feel that I'm insignificant in their lives..
The thought constantly flashes in my mind..
I really want to work during the rehearsals..
I don't want to sit in the control room,
I want to be downstairs, sweating and working my butt off..
But i don't really have a choice do i?
I can't change my position no matter what i do...
It hurts a lot..
Sure, I've said many times that people don't see the work you do,
They don't get what you go through..
But when the person who gives you these 'unfair' feeling,
Becomes one of the people you really care about..
Your heart really just breaks..
Boy,
Mood is totally screwed )':
Plus, still have to study and do homework!
Darn..
Swallow hard and live it through..
Be glad you're alive,
You'll make it through tomorrow!
Don't give up!...
Oh crap..
So much for no unhappiness..
Oh well,
I guess I'll only start that type of posting on Friday after I'm able to get proper rest..
Really really tired..
Eyes can hardly stay open..
Nearly fall asleep in all classes..
No one sees huh?.....
Never give up! =D
Live it through!
Don't let others look down on you~
Smile!(':
