Saturday, September 25, 2010
The 249th Day @ 11:14 PM
Looking back on the week,
Everything seemed to have passed by so slowly..
Yet when i look back,
The week passed by in a flash..
A little confused with myself...
I somewhat wish for someone,
To scold me..
To tell me I've been an idiot for what I've been thinking about..
To tell me that I wasn't at fault..
To slap me on the head..
To rebuke me out of care and concern..
To give me a pat on the head..
Stopped jogging recently..
Can't seem to get myself to go downstairs..
But in place of my run,
I kinda increased the number of sit-ups and push-ups i do..
Stomach a little numb now...
Trying to do those little things to help..
Yet everytime, my efforts are in vain..
Indecisiveness fills my mind..
My thoughts are clouded by that look of yours..
I tremble...
Sigh..
Gosh.. Distracted by this same thing again ><
But why does it feel different this time?
Am i really a leader?
People not involved say i am one..
But what about those whom i actually lead..
Am i a leader to them?..
What sort of leader gets overrun by his team?
What sort of leader compromises all the time to satisfy the whims and fancy of the group..
I'm a leader who can't get respect from his team...
A leader whos afraid to speak up..
I don't know why..
But while writing all this..
I'm shuddering..
*Deep breath*
(:
It's okay..
Everything will be fine..
Just find that one reason..
That one reason to smile..
And make every second worthwhile..
I need a wake up call...
